Cold feet
August 30th, 2005 by sourrainI rarely write about such personal things,but such life changing events deserves ONE post,if not more.
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Over the weekend, I spent about RM 6k on a ring. Or ratther, Si spent. Yes,one ring. And that’s after spending RM8K on an earlier ring

Tiffany’s Elsa PerettiĀ® band ring, wide. Platinum; 9 round brilliant diamonds, .10 total carat weight, color grade G, clarity grade VS. Original designs copyrighted by Elsa Peretti.
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Now that we’ve bought a wedding band for me, this marriage thing is becoming a reality. The truth is, I am scared shitless. How do you know that this is happily ever after? How do you know you still even want him the day after the wedding?
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Yet, there is a part of me that can’t wait to wake up every morning to someone who thinks you’re sex on legs even if you’re PMS-ing. Even if I drool all over his chest as I snooze away snoring like a train. Not that I do!!
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I can’t wait to share a home with someone who is amused with my perpetual search for cutesy stuff but corrects his english at the same time. And he’s English.
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Someone who would spend a grotesque amount of money that he cannot afford on a rock mounted on a round of metal just to amuse me and cater to my obsession with Tiffany’s . Someone who would spend hours on the plane just to see me for a weekend. Many weekends. Someone who blushes when he asks my father his permission to marry me.
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Someone who willingly cooks me breakfast every morning because I can’t get out of bed. Someone who cleans ,cooks and folds without a complain.
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I’ve never understood why do people get cold feet if they’re marrying someone they love. Now I do. It’s got nothing to do with love, and everything to do with life.
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What makes it scarier is the fact that I am moving on to a brand new country where I do not know a soul. Where I will probably not be able to continue my flourishing career and end up with a job of a lower grading.Where it would take me at least another 4 years to build my career up to where I am right now.
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One good news though. As we both work for the same Group Company, my bosses are trying to help me look for another job in the UK within the Group, and I don’t have to resign officially as it’ll be a transfer. That means I will still be entittled to my employee benefits like medical and bonuses.At least that would give me a good start in this cold and gray country I will be calling home.
















